I Guess I Am Not Bulletproof

Posted by   Schilo67   |   Categories :   An Addicts Perspective

Hello everyone. So today is Sunday the 14th of January so it has been a long time since I have sat down and actually wrote a post. So this is a landmark day. Not So all begin by giving a little bit about myself. For some of the people that don’t know who I am my name is Eli and I am an addict of the worst kind.

I am the kind of addict that has no problem admitting that I have a problem and I will give you the best bullschitt any one man could possibly could. By the time I am done you will think that you are the one with the problem and maybe you should talk to someone about it.

Being an addict is not easy. You know if only it could be like a professional athlete and just retire. Or an Actor just get phased out gracefully. Or better yet just retire and get your pension and live out the rest of your days  in Florida or somewhere warm.

Unfortunately I have this idea that I am going to go out with a bang. Literally!! See here’s the deal this is where I try to explain to you that I am bullet proof. And having a heart attack was just a spoof. Wasn’t meant to happen. You know the fucked up thing is that it did happen! And I almost died. And I  was scared.It changed my life in so many ways.

Now is when I have to get honest and for  the first time admit that I am not bulletproof. That I am not invincible that I need help. That I only have one way left to travel and that’s in a box and that’s five or six feet down. See I have done everything else. Jails, Institutions and  now the only thing is Death.

I am going to let you in on a little secret though. I still feel like being on this earth for a little longer. See there is quite a few things that I need to get done. It’s not like a bucket list or anything like that. I won’t get into that right now. Let me say this. There is a lot of turmoil in my world right now. You know the crazy thing is I am not tripping on it. And for the first time I am okay with it

So I am going to end this  post today with a few words that I feel might just help another addict. Always remember that today is the first day of your life. And wherever you go there you are. And Be All That You Can Be..

I Stole That One From The Army Commercials.  Please leave me a comment. Whether it’s good or bad. Everyone be safe and till next signing off

Elija aka Schilo67



January 14, 2018

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