Changes But Staying The Same.
Where to begin. Addiction has many faces. For some of you that don’t know my name is Schilo and I am an addict.I currently changed residence from Longmont Co. To Velarde New Mexico. As of now it is the best decision I have made in a long time. Getting back to the title being in Velarde has changed my views on the drug epedimic that plagues every small town across America. Heroin is the drug of choice in Northern New Mexico. As is Meth is in Longmont Colorado. Being back in Velarde after 8 years is kind of a reality check as far as seeing some of the men and women that I grew up with. Seeing them after so many years has shown the toll what addiction has done to there bodies.To say that addiction doesn’t affect everyone that is in its path is an understatement. Moving from Colorado has brought me to see how important life is. I know now that I was kept on this earth a little longer for a reason. I am the first to tell you that I am not good with changes. And damn have I had to change almost everything about my life. An addict hates change. Good morning it’s about 5;30 a.m. I think this is probably one of the best times for writing. At least for me. I do many stupid things as an addict. Some of the decisions I have made come from the hip. Needing to think things thru. To say I have gotten better at it. More like I have learned to choose my audience a little better. I ran into a friend that I had grown up with. We were best friends. As usual I was the shoulder she cried on. The guy she went to when her world was falling apart. Little did she know that I wanted to be the guy she cried about. As we got older of course we grew apart. Me in my addiction and her in hers. Today as of March 4th we are both clean and doing well, As well as any clean addict can be. I know that there is always going to be bumps in the road.Obstacles that seem impossible to overcome. With the grace of my higher power. I will succeed in this game of life. Who knows maybe I will get the girl. And then again maybe not. Thank you everyone.